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Title: If it Matters to You, it Matters to Me
Rating: G
Pairing: James/Carlos, side Kendall/Logan (because it's not like I could write anything else...)
Warnings: None

Summary: James learns that even though many things have changed about Carlos since they moved to LA, some things still mean just as much to him as ever.

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Sailor Moon the Movie (Independent Short)

I haven't posted a whole lot about Sailor Moon on here but if we're friends on facebook then you know I've been majorly obsessed with Sailor Moon lately, having gotten back into it after discovering the musicals. Well this group of fans, who are responsible for the hilarious series Sailor Moon Abridged, decided to raise money to produce the first ten minutes of a full-length feature film. I would normally never donate to a Sailor Moon fan project because I don't think it's really worth my money and because they never seem to actually get done (there are several Sailor Moon fan projects like fandubs, other films, etc. which get started up and then never finish or spend years in limbo) but I trusted the SMA team. They were giving themselves something doable by only promising us ten minutes, they had an experienced production team, and they were raising money BEFORE they got started, rather than starting without really planning and finding out later that they didn't have the money to continue.

I donated $25 to their campaign on indiegogo which was enough to get my name in the credits, a DVD of the film, and a poster signed by the cast. After meeting (and then far surpassing) their goal of $2500 the team began casting and costuming, then finally filming. I think they got the movie out in about two months from the start of principle photography to finished product which was incredible and so I give you the finished product:

On my first viewing I wasn't thrilled, but I've rewatched it several times and while I still have disappointments I do think it's a good project.

The acting quality is kind of all over the place, especially in the first scene. Avery Danielle's performance is looking very overdone, probably in large part due to her being a theatre-trained actress. She's playing to the back rows even though she's on camera and really doesn't need to broadcast her emotions so largely. Nick Uhas as Endymion, by contrast, is stiff in the worst way. He's saying words, not acting, Avery's got the theatrics turned up full-blast, and their own performance flaws are only highlighting each others. The contrast between Endymion's performance and Serenity's makes him look even more wooden and her look even more over-wrought.

The lack of chemistry between the two is also noticeable and it's hard to take. In the next scene this is improved and we see some playfulness between the two and the movie does, in my opinion, improve from here.

We next see the morning routines of these two characters' reincarnations 1000 years later. The movie actually puts in the caption "1000 YEARS LATER" which I thought was hilarious. Not sure why, I think because usually when you see a time jump like that in a film it's never more than one lifetime so I thought it was cute to use that trope in a bit of a playful way. Uhas and Danielle are both improved in these scenes, granted, they have no lines, but they seem more at ease portraying these smaller everyday scenes than the epic scene they previously tackled. Avery is particularly enjoyable here as we see Serenity's typical day of waking up late, trying to decide between fruit or a doughnut for breakfast (finally deciding on two doughnuts) and running off to school late.

After school we meet Naru who we learn is Bunny's best friend (we also learn that Bunny is Serenity's name in this lifetime, though it's not clear if this is a given name or a nickname) and get a glimpse of every Sailor Moon fan's favorite nerd Melvin. Kris Woodside plays Naru and Eric Pietrangolare plays Melvin, characters they both voice hilariously in Sailor Moon Abridged. Woodside's performance here is thankfully different from her SMA characterization and Naru is likeable, if a bit annoyingly positive about everything all the time forever. Pietrangolare's performance is very similar to his SMA incarnation, but as Melvin is a comic relief character in every incarnation of the story in which he appears, it's an enjoyable role.

Bunny and Naru head to Crown Parlor (running into Luna on the way) and their actors give what I find to be their best performance and the best scene in the movie. The dialogue is very natural, the girls have a nice chemistry, and the scene is even pretty funny. While heading home from Crown Bunny discusses her whereabouts with her mom in a cute phone call, but soon walks in on a monster attacking a classmate of hers (Corinne S., voice of Sailor Moon and others on SMA) and is attacked herself.

Luna reappears and gives Bunny her transformation brooch and we finally get the appearance of Sailor Moon! The transformation scene is quick, not a fully animated sequence like in the anime, live-action series, or that one musical which I can understand as they are often criticized even by fans as being nonsensical (Why don't the enemies just attack while they're dancing like that? I can address that issue later) plus I think in this instance it would have kind of ruined the mood of the piece and also eaten up time which is very limited. The transformation is instead a shimmering light which envelops Bunny and disspates to reveal a very brave and very well-done re-imagining of Sailor Moon's costume. It is mostly inspired by the creator Naoko Takeuchi's original designs for the character, with a few original twists.

Sailor Moon doesn't get much of a chance to shine in this battle as she's got no experience and most of the fighting is done by Tuxedo Mask who arrives just after Bunny's transformation. The fight is a little disappointing, especially knowing that they had the help of a professional parkour team choreographing and like much of the movie you are left wanting more. Tux and the monster grapple and Sailor Moon does get to deliver the final blow, saving Tuxie with her Tiara throw in a very good display by the special effects department.

After the fight Sailor Moon stumbles home, tired, hurt, trying to walk in stiletto boots, and unconsciously transforms back into Bunny who crawls into a shed and curls up for a second to just deal with what the hell just happened. She sees Luna again just before the scene goes to black and we get the title screen, followed by a cut to Sailor Moon giving her iconic "I'll punish you" speech, delivered with great attitude by Miss Danielle, and we get a "To Be Continued..." before the credits roll.

Throughout the film there is good camera work which I think should be commended. The music is very good as well, fitting the scenes in which it plays and well-performed by the artists. The audio has some issues, occasionally sounding like it was recorded in a bathroom with a faint echo, but it's not much of a problem. The visual effects are fantastic, honestly on par with and frequently surpassing those in the live-action series. While the acting quality does vary from performer to performer and even scene to scene, it is overall passable. The pacing makes the story a bit loose, there's not much tension to it, but taking into account the limitations it seems understandable. I do believe it could have been improved even within the time constraints though.

Taking into account the fact that this is a fan-made, non-profit, independent opening to a film I'd give the finished product 4/5 Stars. If the project is continued, and I hope it will be, my only hope is that Nick Uhas improves his line reading or is replaced, and that Luna looks more graceful and cat-like. Everything else I think is pretty much on track to where it should be.

P.S. If you're looking for my name in the credits they're sorted alphabetically by first name so you'll see me in the first column on the left!

BTR Fanfic: Moving On

Title: Moving On
Rating: PG
Characters/Pairings: Kendall/Logan
Summary: When Logan withdraws emotionally from the guys Kendall decides to get to the bottom of the situation. What he learns isn’t necessarily good news.
Author's Note: First fic I've ever written. Probably going to leave it as a oneshot but I do have ideas for how I would continue it so if I were to ever organize them there may be another chapter or two.

       Logan had been distant lately and Kendall couldn't stand it.

       It wasn't entirely uncommon for him to withdraw from James and Carlos from time to time, but he never put up a wall like this to Kendall.

       The boys of Big Time Rush were on their third concert tour, their first ever international tour, and while Kendall and the others were thrilled and eager to explore every city they visited, Logan more and more often opted to stay in the hotel room by himself. Kendall tried to talk to him about it more than once and each time the topic was approached Logan evaded the question or gave some lame excuse about being tired, but Kendall knew Logan too well. He could see the way he retreated behind his eyes, the way he did when he was thinking about something big that he didn't want to share. What hurt Kendall was that it was the first time Logan had ever treated him that way. That distant look was for people who weren't Kendall, people who weren't in that special part of Logan's heart where he would share anything. So when they got back to their suite late from their first rehearsal at the concert hall in Melbourne, and Logan once again left the boys in the living room saying he was going to bed early, Kendall followed him into their room, intent on getting some answers from the boy.

       The room was dark when Kendall walked in. He shut the door behind him as quietly as he could and turned around to see Logan standing with his forehead resting against their window, one hand lightly placed against the glass. Assuming that Logan was looking over the lights of the city, he approached the boy at the window, but when he reached Logan he saw that his eyes were shut as he stood there, apparently lost in thought, with his breath slowly fogging the cool glass.

       "Logan?" Kendall gently approached, reaching a hand out to his shoulder.

       "WHA-" Logan started and jumped away from the window, snapped violently from his reverie by Kendall's interruption. "Oh, sorry" Logan began. "I was just...thinking. Got a little wrapped up. What's up?"

       "That's what I want to know, Logan. Why have you been acting so weird lately?"

       "What do you mean?" Logan asked with a look of mild confusion.

       "The way you've been avoiding us and everything. You barely spend any time with me and the guys, you don't go out with us, you've been half-assing rehearsals, you don't say anything when we do interviews..." Kendall trailed off, hesitant to say what he was thinking.

       Finally he added "It's like you don't even want to be here anymore."

       And Kendall could see it before Logan even opened his mouth. The way he hid behind that mask that he apparently thought Kendall couldn't see through. "I've just been kind of tired lately, you know? It's stressful, doing all this traveling, and I think I might have some allergies here that are getting to me. I'm ok, really."

       "Logan, don't you think I can tell when you lie to me?" Kendall noticed a bit of an edge in his voice. He softened "Come on Logie, I know you. I can see that something's going on and you're not telling us. It's bad enough that you won't talk to James and Carlos about it, but I thought you knew you could always talk to me."

       Logan's face tightened a bit. "Kendall..."

       Kendall took Logan's hands and brought him over to sit on his bed. "Logan, please talk to me" He said as he brought a hand up to cup the nape of Logan's neck. "What's going on with you?"

       Logan met Kendall's eyes for a moment before looking away uncomfortably. Kendall waited patiently because he saw in Logan's face that he was close to letting it out, whatever it was. When Logan finally looked back at him Kendall could see the sadness in his dark eyes. Could see in his knit eyebrows and tight, thin lips that he was dreading telling Kendall what was on his mind. Kendall inclined his head toward Logan just a bit more and simply asked "Please?" and with that Logan finally opened his mouth, inhaled, and after one more moment's hesitation, finally spoke.

       "I want to go to med school"

       Kendall couldn't help but feel a bit cheated and annoyed by this "revelation" which was both common knowledge and old news. Dropping his hand from Logan's neck he spoke "I know, Logan. You've always wanted to go to med school when we were done with the whole boy band thing-"

       "You misunderstand me Kendall" Logan said, cutting him off as he apparently sensed the frustration in Kendall's voice. "I don't mean I want to go to med school some day, I want to go now." He looked into Kendall's eyes, waiting for a reaction. The implications of Logan's words took a few moments to sink in before Kendall realized what Logan was really telling him.

       "You don't want to be part of Big Time Rush anymore, do you?" he asked, and Logan shook his head sadly. Kendall brought his hand to rest between Logan's shoulders as he pulled him into an embrace. He could feel Logan begin to tremble and sob slightly and his words spilled out in an urgent whisper

       "I'm so sorry. I love being with you guys but I feel like I'm just putting my future on hold and I don't want to do it anymore" He pressed his face into Kendall's chest and clenched the fabric of the shirt tightly in his hand. "I'm sorry I haven't been putting my heart into it lately but I'm almost 21 years old now. I should already be well into my studies at this point and I just feel... like I'm behind. I should be making progress towards my dream but I'm not"

       Kendall placed a kiss on the top of Logan's head and rubbed his back, trying to calm him. "I never thought the band would last this long" Logan admitted to Kendall quietly. Then, even softer "I think I hoped that it wouldn't" he pulled his face away from Kendall's chest to look into his eyes. Kendall could see the guilt clearly marked on Logan's features "I know that's terrible because you guys love it so much and I shouldn't want to mess up your lives, and I don't. I really don't. That's why I've been trying to keep all of this out of my mind the last year or two, but I just haven't been able to bottle it up lately. I'm sorry I never confided any of this in you but I didn't want you to worry about me."

       "Logan, you know I want you to tell me stuff like this. I want to help you with anything that upsets you."

       "I know, Kendall" Logan said sincerely "That's why I couldn't tell you." he said as he dried his eyes. Kendall's confusion must have shown on his face because Logan went on to explain. "I know you. If I had told you this you would have been perfectly supportive and told me that the band didn't matter and I had to be true to myself and follow my dream, and I just couldn't let you do that" Kendall couldn't really say anything, because that was true. If Logan had brought these concerns to him he would have completely put the band aside to make sure Logan was happy. Even before they officially began their relationship, Kendall had always placed Logan's needs just a bit ahead of James', Carlos', and his own.

       "Well you know I'm going to say the same thing now" Kendall said, causing Logan to finally crack a smile "I know" Logan said with a small laugh "But I still don't think I'm quite ready to take your advice" he said, as the smile faded and he dropped his eyes to the floor. "Logan, you have to." Kendall said firmly, picking up Logan's chin and forcing the other to look him in the eye "You can't stay with the band when it's making you miserable like this"

       "Kendall, I'm not-"

       "Yes you are. You think you're so good at hiding it but we can all see it. I can't stand to see you like this any more. It's not good for you and..." he dropped his voice a bit lower and moved closer to Logan "...it hurts me to see you like this"

       Logan wrapped his arms around Kendall's waist, rested his head on his chest again, and was quiet for a while as Kendall gently rubbed his hand up and down Logan's back.

       Finally Logan spoke again "How can I tell them?" he asked softly.

       "They'll understand." Kendall assured him. "James might be upset at first but he'll come around."

       "What about Kelly and Gustavo though?" Logan asked, looking up at Kendall. "We're their only client right now and Gustavo was counting on us for his comeback. What if Griffin fires him because I break up the band?"

       "Logan, you can't worry about that. Besides, we've been a band for like, five years now. We've had three top 10 albums, three sold-out tours, and have done like, five-thousand product placements for RCM/CBT Globalnet Sanyoid products. I think we've brought in enough money and notoriety to keep Kelly and Gustavo employed for a while."

       "I guess so" Logan said, sounding unsure "I'm...I'm gonna miss them though" he said sadly. "I've been thinking about everything that giving up the band will mean and I don't want to have to say goodbye to them." Kendall hadn't thought about that part. He would miss them too, but the bottom line was that Logan wasn't happy anymore and he needed to be happy again. So long as Kendall looked at it that way, the decision was easy. "Yeah, I'll miss them too, but you know that med school is the right choice for you."

       Logan sighed and pulled away from Kendall as he sat up straight. He rubbed his eyes a bit to clear them as his tears had stuck his eyelashes together and looked at Kendall warmly. "Thank you, Kendall" he said with a gentle smile "I love you" Kendall pulled him into a tight hug, so thankful to finally have gotten to the bottom of the situation "I love you too, Logie. Let's go to bed, we can talk to Carlos and James in the morning."

       They didn't even bother changing, simply kicked off their shoes and lay down on Logan's bed. Logan curled into Kendall's arms and, for the first time in months, fell asleep with a peaceful mind.
This was just too much awesome for me to wait 'til morning

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Happy BTR Day!

Happy BTR Day everyone! "What's BTR Day?" you ask? Well, it's the day the band Big Time Rush's debut album, BTR, debuts.

And it's today!

Now, how do you celebrate BTR Day? In a perfect world you could wear your Big Time Rush T-Shirt and silly bands that came with your pre-order, but if for any reason that is not possible (like if UPS decided to be a tool and reschedule your delivery), there are still ways to partake in this joyous occasion! First and foremost, buy BTR. Your BTR Day simply won't make sense without it. You can pick it up at any self-respecting CD store (I didn't see it at FYE, so boo on them) or on iTunes for only $6.99.

BUT WAIT! Don't just jump right into the album! I know, you can't wait to hear some BTR, but it will be so much more enjoyable if you familiarize yourself with the band prior to listening. I recommend the following videos:

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Ok, Glee's "Bad Romance"

THIS IS SO AWESOME!! After seeing this I am truly gutted that I can't see the tour. Everyone is really owning the performance especially Naya Rivera (Santana)! She's been coming out strong in the last few episodes and this just shows what an extreme talent she is and she REALLY needs to be better utilized in the show.


          Tonight was definitely my favorite episode since The Return.

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P.S. Expect a review of Chess to be coming soon. I saw a performing asrts school's production on Sunday and it was great :)


A (New) Nightmare on Elm Street

Saw the remake of A Nightmare on Elm Street last night with Emily. I've loved the original since I first saw it in grade school and when the remake was announced I was less than thrilled, to say the least, especially when hearing that Robert Englund would not be reprising his role of Freddy, making this the first time any actor other than Englund would play the role. As previews were realeased, however, I started to get more excited for it! The new makeup for Freddy looked very promising. Less sinister, perhaps, than Englund's had been, but more realistic with melted features and missing lips. The movie looked like it was going deeper into the science of sleep as well, as the previews introduced the idea of micro naps (when an insomniac's brain shuts down part of itself for regeneration without the person's knowledge so that they can be dreaming even though they're awake) for the first time in the whole series which looked like it would add an excellent element to the story.

What I saw last night, however, was an overall disappointment.

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No, seriously. Because this week (as well as the last few) has been. . . trying.

The term is coming to an end within a month and I am not the least bit ready for it. I have to do some volunteer work for one of my classes and I haven't contacted the organization to schedule my hours with them yet. I will definitely be doing that this weekend. My grade in Art History is currently, I can't even believe this, a D. Seriously. I've always struggled with this professor's tests but I can't believe I have a D! In a Major requirement! We've only had one test so far and I just don't know if there's enough time to bring up my grade, especially since I turned in my paper late, so it's not going to get full credit, and I'm not too confident in the paper's quality to begin with. I'm definitely going to be studying a lot more in-depth than usual for this next test coming up on Tuesday. I am going to know every minute detail of these artists' lives. Plus be able to spell their wonky French names properly, as that's often an issue. Seriously French people, why use all those letters if you're not going to pronounce them? That's what we call wasteful. lol

Thankfully Sweeney Todd wrapped on Sunday so I'll finally have some free time to work on schoolwork. It was a great experience, practically a dream come true, really, because I just love that show, and I made a lot of new friends, but it really consumed a lot of my time, especially the last two weeks when we had 3+ hours of practice every night and longer on weekends. I'm about 99% sure that I won't be doing the show next year. I'll miss it, but I just will not have time to do it since I'll be student teaching. Even though it's going to be West Side Story which, A) I've just fallen in love with (talk about late to the party!) and B) is a male-dominated show meaning that I'll have a very good shot at a role since there aren't a lot of guys who do the musicals here, but I need to be practical. Schoolwork comes first, especially when it's student teaching which will undoubtedly be my most important class.

Also, I haven't posted about this here yet, but I've started dating a girl up here. Her name is Emily and she's very nice, but I feel that things aren't progressing enough with us. We've been going out since Valentine's day and I have yet to kiss her or ask her officially to be my girlfriend. I had planned to do it on our third date but before our third date we both had a few busy weeks and she got upset with me thinking that I wasn't taking the relationship seriously and asked me what my intentions were. She kind of wouldn't let the issue drop until finally I told her all about how I planned to kiss her and ask her to be my girlfriend on our date that night, but after that it didn't feel very romantic anymore so I didn't do it. I've hoped to make the effort on each of our dates since then but every single time something ruins it. Namely, the fact that there are always people around! Either milling around outside her apartment when I walk her home, or my roommates, or her roommates. Basically, people I don't really want to be involved in my first kiss, so each time I just forego the attempt and end the night with a hug. Now I'm feeling like it's just been too long and I believe she's probably just as frustrated over it as I am.

BUT! It's the weekend! There's a new episode of "Big Time Rush" on tonight (I know it's lame but that makes me happy. Even happier than when there's a new "Glee".) and I'm finally going to be free on a Friday night and able to watch it! I'm probably going to be seeing Chess the musical, not this weekend but the next. Admittedly, I don't know much about it, but I've liked most of what I've heard from it in the past, especially "One Night in Bangkok" (seriously, click here and see it in all it's shining '80s glory!) and some of my friends, such as revyrie , love it so I'm definitely looking forward to it. I'll be hanging out with Lindsey and Clare, two of my best friends up here, tonight which we haven't been able to do in months as just the three of us. Most importantly, I have a nice long time to study for the next Art History test since there are no obligations this weekend.

It's going to be good.

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